Just some thoughts....

What a fun day this has been for the kids in Union County!!  PROM DAY 2010~  


The weather has been beautiful; there has been enough 'warm' in the air for a hint of spring, but not too hot!!  Just beautiful (and everything was such a nice shade of green, thanks to the pollen)~


All day, I've kept thinking about this particular day.... Senior Prom; 2010.  I really had some grand plans for this day, as this is my oldest child's prom.  Right around the corner; he'll be looking back on this day as a distant memory.  Many of you know, I am a teacher at the high school, which 'allows' me to chaperone such events!!  I had already planned (long ago) to volunteer, and if I happened to have my camera; I might snap a few pics~  (Those of you who know me well are falling out of your chair laughing.  There is no such thing as "happening' to snap a 'few' pics in our family!!)


Obviously, because of other plans, my plans for this day were put on the back burner.  I haven't returned to school yet; chemo this week has made me a little more tired than the others; and I just didn't feel like going.  So, I've been mad all day about the fact that I wanted to be there so badly but couldn't.


As the day wore on and more Prom events were approaching and then gone; I really wasn't sure exactly why I was having all these stupid emotions.  


Then, I got a text.... a good one.  My son and his date were voted Prom King and Queen!!  Whew!!  And, I missed it!!! 


After this; my anger just seemed to go away.  Not really sure why.  I had already been kind of thinking about how fortunate we have been to raise our kids in the best place on earth; how good it feels to be able to trust our children when they tell us something; how beautiful our children are...... been thinking about those things a lot.  I also, throughout the day, was thinking how unfair our 'situation' has been for them.  


HOWEVER, I've come to the conclusion that we are all better for it.  On Facebook recently I asked the question (something like):  "Is Brokenness necessary for growth?"  In our situation; the brokenness that we have experienced as a family has allowed us to grow in such a way we never would have otherwise!  We are closer; we laugh at little things more; we take care of each other and above all, we are more sure now than ever that God is faithful!  You see, my children needed to see what it looks like to be broken before God.  And, He has chosen me to help them with that.  (DOn't you wish He didn't trust you so much sometimes?)


As I sat and waited on our son to return home safe and sound, I began feeling sad for the parents that DON'T have the blessings I have.  I felt sad that perhaps there might be some mama that was pacing the floor wondering what kind of antics her child was into.  Felt sad that there was a daughter that didn't get the approval of her father before leaving with her date (and the consequences that could follow).  Felt sad for the parents who perhaps would get 'that' phone call..... 


So~ as you can tell; this has been such an emotional roller coaster kind of a day.  I'm so thankful tomorrow is Sunday... the day of rest!!


Not really sure why I felt the need to spill all this out, but perhaps someone will benefit from it.....
~If you have plans; don't write them in stone. Our Father just might have other plans.  THis happens to the best of us, and it doesn't really matter how carefully you plan.  Things change.  The thing I had to remind myself of today is this:  When I stop trying to tell Him how to run my life, things go a lot better!!!
~Being angry doesn't really help a lot.  Just gives you wrinkles!!
~It's ok to be angry for a little bit.  Just don't set up camp there.  Once you camp there, it is quite the difficult task to pack that tent away.
~Find something to be thankful for!!!  Sometimes that is HARD; but it can be done!!!!


I am going to attempt to post a couple of pics here.  This afternoon; the hammock came out of hiding for the season, and all three kids piled up and had the best time!!!


Until next time......

Half Way.... a good place to be!!

Good afternoon everyone! HOpe this finds you doing well. Gonna try to give you a quick update on the past few weeks!!

Yesterday (monday) was Chemo #3; officially the half way point!! YAY!!! I am so hoping that means it is down hill from here. (But, preparing for it not to be!)

My blood count continues to stay at good levels, so that is good!! I also continue to have good energy levels, except for the week of chemo.

I see no reason that this won't continue to go as well as it has so far. Time will tell.....

I also saw the plastic surgeon yesterday. The leaking issue with my incision that we've battled for several weeks is still there; however, it is improving. She has kept it stitched for several weeks in hopes that will promote the healing necessary. yesterday, she unstitched; then re-stitched. She says that the place is closing up; just taking time.

There is STILL NO SIGN OF INFECTION from this site; and that is a huge relief. She was concerned with chemo I would be 'compromised' but that hasn't been an issue so far.

I will see her again early next week.

I have adjusted to my new hair cut pretty well. I have worn both my 'new' hair and doo rags; and each have been fine. I was worried that my new hair would look fake. It does not. A couple of people commented on my new cut, etc and wanted to feel of it... and I have had to do some heavy ducking!! (And, explaining!) So, it has passed the 'real looking' test several times!! So, that is good!!

I think this catches you up on all the 'excitement' from the Miller's household.

I will return to school in the next few weeks; and in that time will also prepare for our oldest to graduate. So, I am afraid this next hurdle will be quite the emotional roller coaster (but, I've kind of gotten used to that!!)

Thank you for your continued prayers/support!!! Until next time.....

A Week Of Firsts

Well, this has been an interesting week or so. It has been a lot of 'firsts'.....
~The sun was shining and the warm temperatures were around for the FIRST time in a long time!! Ahhhhhh..... spring!!
~First time I had to really 'defend' myself with someone trying to talk me into being sick. (interesting story; I might share it sometime, not today)
~First time I've laughed really hard in a long time (thanks, Grandmother!!)
~First time I'd ever gotten a haircut with a set of clippers.
~First time I've worn my 'other' hair.
~First time I've been to the grocery store in a really long time (my children are thankful)

In my last post (I think), I mentioned my 'hair situation' and was, at that time, having a really hard time. At this point, I am doing much better. Still adjusting, but MUCH better.

The 2nd Chemo wasn't nearly as bad as the first. I'm so thankful for whatever made it that way. Maybe I knew better what to expect? Maybe I knew how to better take my meds? Maybe it just wasn't as bad! Wouldn't that be cool if, instead of getting worse with each time, God would let it bet easier with each time?? How cool that could be!!!

I think I also mentioned that I was still having incision difficulties. It is healing well, but apparently, not fast enough to 'hold back' fluid that my body nautrally produces. There is still no sign of infection, but since I've begun chemo, they are watching extra close! I will go on Monday for another appointment with the Plastic Surgeon.

Thank you for your kind words of encouragement! I love reading your comments.

I hope you have a WONDERFUL Easter weekend. What an overwhelming time for me this year. To know Jesus endured much worse than Breast Cancer so I could have eternal life!! Man o man!!